I'm such a little kid. I feel like all I ever do is brood. Feeling sorry for myself? It's an insanely unattractive quality I have. Insanely unattractive. I mean, there's nothing really that wrong in my life, and yet. Brood? I'm a baby, haha. It's 5AM and I'm still awake. I wonder what time I'll wake up in the morning? After noon, I'm sure. Stupid nightmares keeping me up. Nightmares! Yet another unattractive quality. Oh well. And on top of that, this whole throat-recovery thing just isn't going as hot as I'd planned. I want some damn Sunny D, and I can't quite drink it without dying in pain right now. That's getting annoying. See? Brooding. I'm going to shut up now. Even though I could think of more to say here..

So, I've really made some great new friends. They're all unique, beautiful, and hysterical. I've lost some good old ones, too, but I think that it was time for those to be over. "You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been and look ahead to what would be. Other days, now days, days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves for growing up." -The Wonder Years. Things change. People change. I've changed. I can tell you that much. I guess my old friends just changed, too. Not for the better, not for the worse. Just... different. I'm glad I know everyone I do, and I don't regret knowing them now. Like the quote says, we don't have to hate each other for getting older. Just because we've grown apart doesn't mean we have to dislike each other now, right? I hope not even though it seems like that's the way it's heading. It's slightly disheartening. But I have hope. I'm instilling that hope in my new friends. Hope that, if one day we do grow apart, we won't hate one another for it.

So raise your glass! Here's to a new beginning and hope in what's about to be the new year. Here's to finding myself a man. (Seriously, people.) And here's to chasing dreams and graduation. Cheers!